Revelations.

You hear it all the time as January 1st approaches, "This year this gonna be different", "This is the year I'm going to stick to my resolution.", "New Year = New Me". I've been guilty of doing this a time or two and every year I find myself disappointed just few months in because I realize nothing is different, nothing has changed. At the end of the day I only had myself to blame.

This is my verbal commitment to myself as well as to all my readers that this year WILL be different. I've made the most important decision of my life (up to this point at least) . And that is to live a healthier lifestyle. It's more than just workout and changing how I eat, it's making a lifestyle change. 

It was just this past week that I made some revelations about my life that even surprised myself as the words flowed from my pen to paper. It's hard enough to admit things like this myself and my bestfriend, but to put it out there for the world to see is terrifying. But it's another way to keep myself accountable in this journey I'm just beginning.

"I’ve also decided to make a few changes in my life. I’ve never been comfortable with my body and the last few months I felt as though I had hit bottom. I was doing no physical activity and constantly ordering out at work."

"My list of goals for the coming year looks very similar to yours. I’ve made my #1 priority of 2013 myself. I’m determined to become the best person I can be and to ultimately be in love with life. I’ve spent too long stuck in the past, in the world of what if’s and what could’ve been. )  I was  really hurt and down on myself, blaming myself for what happened and the aftermath of it all. I think I’m finally moving on from it all and just letting it all go. I’ve always been a firm believer in everything happens for a reason and I’m thinking I’m just now learning why it all happened. It’s led me to become the best person I can be, (which is still a work in progress), a stronger person, and given me the reason to focus on me, myself, and I."